Love, Turil

For you, my honey…

just life

Lj seems to be really broken, so I’ll put my emotional thoughts and feelings here, again.

I’m in an odd place these days. Being connected to the internet, in a more consistent and full way again has changed my work and life dramatically. I’m far less connected with “Palermo stuff”, and far more connected to “Global stuff”. It’s not good or bad, it just is. But it means I’m conflicted about where to invest my energies, now that I have a choice in the matter. :-) Google+ has been awesome, and really much more of what I think we’ve needed in the world as a social networking system that really supports intelligent collaboration on global problems. It’s not perfect, but it’s got far more of what we need for this kind of work than anyone else has offered (or at least that enough people use). There is still plenty of unhelpful/sick stuff out there, but nothing compared to Reddit! The real names thing helps immensely, obviously, as people are far more intentional when it comes to communicating nonymously than when putting stuff out there anonymously. Honesty and accountability definitely go a long way to encouraging healthy discourse. There’s certainly a need for spaces to vent and be sick, but a social networking space isn’t where that stuff belongs (that belongs in more intimate settings where there are supportive folks around who understand the value of puking both physically and emotionally :-).

I’m still working on the Binikou local food program at the library and will start having workshops next month. I don’t really want to, but I’ve made a commitment, and gotten the money, and I believe I can make it into something I enjoy. I do wish I had more freedom to do what I wanted with the money, rather than having to stick to a specific plan (which might not be what the community really needs). It’s hard to do the right thing when there are restrictions, and the right thing isn’t officially supported. :-) But I can work with it for now.

Also, on a totally different note, Mom and I found out yesterday that she has quite the serious phobia of flying bats near her head. Which was a surprise because she’s dealt with dead and hurt bats in the house several times and never had a problem. But yesterday morning there was a bat in her bedroom, and when she tried to get out of the room, she freaked out when it flew near her, crouched down on the floor, and literally couldn’t move, even though she wanted to get out of there. I managed to get her window open and the bat flew out, which worked well for everyone. But it was pretty weird how she reacted so strongly. She knew it was silly, but she couldn’t stop herself. We humans are weird, aren’t we? :-)

And on another note, it’s really nice for once to have a real garden. For the first time I really do have more of some things than I can use! I’m not feeling much like making stuff lately (and was eating junk food for a while, even), and I’ve got so much kale! I’m sure I’ll finally start making kale chips again, hopefully… And I’ve even got lots of zucchini, too, for the first time. Fortunately zucchini is very useful as a filler for lots of raw food recipes. I got some raw food books for the library with some of the grant money, and that’s helping inspire me. But it would be so much nicer if there were other people around me making yummy raw food stuff too.



Written by turil

July 28, 2011 at 7:30 am

Posted in all of me

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